THIS PAIN PULLED OUT THE DREAM
On December 26, 2023; she ended it with me. What can I say?
Though chaotic, frustrating, depressing and the only thought was to commit suicide.
It all started in the name of love. Believing it will end in marriage but the calamity it took me through was like drowning in the deep sea without swimming arts.
Many voices in the church programmed my mind all in the name of marriage; simply because of aging. This noise reprogrammed my subconscious mind to dream.
I dreamt and saw this regular, hardworking church girl spiced with smile, elegant appearance, Leadership and Championing many fraternities in the church and I proposed.
She humbly accepted and we set the ball rolling. Hmmmmm
She dramatically showed me love but the intention was not known. She did everything from the onslaught that showed she loved me and in love with me. We both met and discussed at great length on how we were going to put things in place to marry.
She humbly and gratefully agreed on how the journey to marriage will be. She asked to go and see her pastor and church mother; and we did respectfully.
Later, I demanded we go and see her parents, we did in the regard.
Subsequently, she visited me at my end and spent some weeks, because she was on vacation as a tutor. I observed from time to time, she wasn’t free picking a particular call in my presence.
Upon these observations, I questioned politely and informed her to tell this guy she is engaged. But to no avail.
I overlooked and persist in the relationship and went for the marriage list and began buying the items. She refused to stop from this behavior. I was hoping and believing she will change.
The worse was what I experienced and for about a year, I couldn’t attend church and do what I used to do in church. The end was disastrous incident witnessing with your eyes. Long story short, we part ways.
In my moments of frustrations, I kept thinking what to do with my life in addition to what am doing. Then I remembered, I had an idea which didn’t work early, so I revisited it and today is raising authors. The Dalak Publishing Services is the dream that pulled out.
How do you interpret your pains? Not every break-up is meant to shut your dream in life. It is your view about what your pain means that decides your new path to greatness.
This is my story few years back. Learn something from this and chart your course to prove them, you are able.
